Lost
in life
Those
days, I suddenly felt confused of my life, though it is common for a youth to
powdering over her life and exploring the essence, the process is really
painful. Maybe I am standing at a turning point, a point between my normal life
and university, a point towards a mysterious future, which leads to my
confusion.
The
main puzzlement is that I am dying to know the world, to get closer to the
world, but I do not know how to approach this goal.
To
live up to it, I downloaded various newspapers in my mobile phone, I updated
them twice everyday. I browsed them, TIME, Los Angeles Times, BBC news, VOA,
ABC news and many other Chinese famous newspapers and journals. The more I
read, the more panic I am. On account that I found out the world is changing in
a speed out of my imagination, I cannot control it, and since I found that, I
cannot pretend everything is still anymore. I am afraid that I will be left
behind, I am afraid that I will be an idiot who cannot say any word when
everyone around her is exchanging opinions about a topic.
To
avoid this depression, I tried to flick through those materials I download no
matter where I was. However, the expense was I did not contact with anyone in
china in two weeks. And then I felt uncomfortable again. What if they forget me
since I am miles away, what if I am destroying my social network which took me
plenty of time and energy to build? I do not know the answer, I am too scared
to figure it out, and all I can do is to fix it up as soon as possible.
The
life is hard, isn’t it? Even though I am just a pre-university student, even
though I have no need to deal with the love issue which is another troublesome
but unavoidable question, I have already lost. I have to admit that I freak
out, but the only thing which is in my heart is that give the life your very
best, keep fighting. I believe one day I will find my way out of the misty
life.
Wu Yue, First of all DON'T PANIC. We cannot understand everything in the world. What we can do is to maintain relationships that are important to you -- your friends and family, and keep up with what YOU wish to do in life. Try to do good for the community. YOu'll be surprised how much love you get as well as how much better you'll feel. Good luck!
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ReplyDeleteThe world is changing all the time, and we are changing as well to keep pace with the world; however we are the paople who we are, which can never be changed. As for us, we should maintain who we are and try to make us better. I firmly believe you can handle it~
ReplyDeletei think you can just do whatever you like. that's all.
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